A Challenge, Courtesy of Mr. Chambers

I saw this quote and was incredibly challenged today; especially in my current circumstances:

"Look at God’s incredible waste of His saints, according to the world’s judgment. God seems to plant His saints in the most useless places. And then we say, 'God intends for me to be here because I am so useful to Him.' Yet Jesus never measured His life by how or where He was of the greatest use. God places His saints where they will bring the most glory to Him, and we are totally incapable of judging where that may be." -Oswald Chambers

So, in essence, it doesn't really matter whether I interact with three people or three million people, whether I actively pursue peace in our world, or actively pursue sanitizing toilets, whether I go after a Ph. D., or go after street life, if I'm going to said place because God will be glorified most there through me, in that time and place, then that's where I should be.

I love the part where Chambers talks about how God "waste[d]...His saints, according to the world's judgement." I've been thinking a lot about school, and getting a car, and getting a well paying job, and making sure I'm saving enough, and being a responsible adult. And to be honest, it's exhausting. I don't know how everyone does it. This quote has challenged me to let go of those worries. I should be more worried about serving God today, right now, in this moment, because THAT is what I have been given, and that is all that is guaranteed right now. More still, I should be focusing on loving other people around me, serving them, exemplifying a spirit of sacrifice, and making myself less, so that God may be shown more.

While I'm definitely going to be praying for that behavior to become more of a habit in my life, my mind already goes to the possibility of how disappointed different people would be if I didn't "act responsibly." If I didn't end up going to school, getting a "good" job, living a "successful" life. It's scary as hell (no pun intended...really) seeking after God's glory. Because what if, in the course of that, I don't go to school, or get a societally accepted job, etc.?

What do you think world (if anyone even reads my near-abandoned blog any more), what happens if God points in the direction of socially unacceptable life choices? Do you go, or do you justify your actions? Or do you do something else (I won't box you in to those two options)?